So today is Sunday. The one day I actually have off this week. Besides working everyday and watching my room mate move out I cleaned our entire place. My room mate left everything behind. I am not the cleanest person either but I mean atleast help me. You know?


So not only that she still owes me money. I sent her a note 4 days ago and it was on Facebook. I am sure she has seen it. I am stressing out. Ugh, I need to relax.
 

But whatever lets just move on. Yesterday I went to HMV. (It is a cd/dvd store) Now if you know me you know that this is something I do almost everyday. (No I am not a freak it is in the mall where I work. I don't go out of my way for it) Today I found a rack of movies for 2 for 10. Now 5 dollars for a dvd I am on it. So I got The Long Kiss Goodnight. The first rated R movie I saw when I was 7 or 8. My Boss's Daughter. I have never seen it and heard it was good. It isn't, turn back. I got I Am Sam. I am not the hugest fan of this movie but it was the only other good one.

And I got Get Over It. It was made 202 years ago. I saw it in Grade 9 though the same day Lisa "Left Eye" Lopez died. I watched it last night for the first time in about 5 years and I could remember some words. There is this part when a cast member is injured and Marin Short needs a replacement and he goes "Any takers?" and this ugly little mutant child (the guy who has the purple socks in Harriet The Spy) sticks up his hand and Martin Short goes "PUT YOUR HAND DOWN LITTLE STEVE. PUT IT DOWN." For whatever reason that scene always makes me laugh. And I felt like I had just seen it yesterday. It was weird. When the movie was over I sat there and was like I am almost 19 years old. Weird. I don't feel like I will be turning 19 in a few months. Life has gone by so quick.

And to add to my Grade Nineness I am meeting up with an old best friend today. We stopped speaking cause she got into all the hard drugs and I didn't want to follow down that road. And yes I did try to help her before she decided to self destruct but she didn't want to. And if you don't want to quit then you're simply just not going to. Since then she HAS cleaned up. And I think today has been pretty interesting.

 

PEACE OUT.

Andrea

Current Mood: tired

Last night there was thunderstorm. Now, if you know me you know I am deathly afraid of thunderstorms. I dunno why I am just freaked of them. So everytime there is a thunderstorm at least one friend comes over. It is usually one of my "Vancouver Friends":
Jack - My ex. When he was alive he was always there
Katie - One of my best friends. She is now in Austrailia living with her daughter Brittany and her boyfriend,
John - Who sometimes came but is with Katie
Tyler - He was always there but is in Italy living with Beth and they're adorable baby Martin
Aaron - He was always there 2. We have since parted ways and he is in Ontario.
Shay - She came sometimes. her boyfriend Robert never came though haha. Shay was bust last night but we chatted on the phone.
Jess - Rare. But she did come. She is here but was busy
Carlos - My ot gay friend who lives in San Fran
Will - Carlos's lover who lives with him. In San Fran aswell.


So one or more of the following were here to keep me company. But last night none where in reach. I talked with Shay on the phone. We talked about how much has changed with everyone in the past year and how awkward everything has been. It is weird to think about it. We all lived here a year ago, We were all close and we all were happy. Its weird how one minute your life can be perfect in everyway and then it is gone. See with these friends I never wished for more. As corny as that does sound. We were always there for each other no matter how shitty the situation was. Its weird to not be able to call Katie and ask her to go out for Ice Cream [She is an ice cream whore]

While going to my mother's today to do my laundry I was thinking about life in general and I totally broke down crying. I just can't cope with bull shit. I have alot of friends. But they arn't the close friends you can tell everything to. They are just friends. And they hurt you in ways that you didn't think you could be hurt. I miss my friends. I want my old friends back. I want my old life back. I know it will never happen mainly cause everyone is not willing to leave they're homes. And Jack is dead.

I should explain Jack a little further so you can better understand. Jack was my best guy friend. We did everything together since forever. We kinda grew up together. As friends. Until I turned 14 and I had a mad crush on him. We always hung out but I always wanted it to be more. And one day when I was 15 he asked me out. He was playing the bag pipes and he can't. You think bag pipes are awful? Try listening to someone who can't play. So anyways I was like "Jack please stop. I will do anything." "Anything?" He says. And  I am like "Yes. Anything." "Alright, go out with me,"  So at this point I had been freaking out and I said "YES!" and thats how it started.

We dated for almost 6 months and then he died. He got hit by a car. I remember just sitting there and then BANG this woman hit him. She said she was late for dinner. The one thing that bothered me about that day (besides the love of my life dying) was that she didn't care. She said it was his fault cause he was in the middle of the road. But besides that I lost my best friend and the best guy I have ever met. I still have dreams of him talking to me. Just as we were when we were together. I love them but at the same time they cloud my judgement.

I don't know where my life is going or what is going to happen to it. All I could ask for is someone to give a shit. My old room mate just moved out. And after her moving out and leaving life will be interesting. I am kinda scared.

I like someone I do but he doesn't like me. He is just a friend. He has kicked me around and I still like him. How fucked up am I?

Current Location: My Hall
Current Mood: Perplexed
Current Music: U Remind Me - Usher

So I havent posted in awhile and I never finished my other post but that is all done with, My brother is talking to me again and the bitch from my work quit cause of a hip probelm. I like to think "Karma hit her in the hip." Karma will always bite you in the ass people. Remember this.

So anyways work and family at the moment is not killing me inside. Which is a nice change for once. Surpising but nice. I am currently trying to look for another job.  The hunt has been brutal and herrendous but interesting and I can't really complain. It's a journey I have to walk through the shit to get the gold. You can't start and BANG! Get the job. 

Alright so lets start with May 26th 2007 (At the present time this was yesterday) Anyways so I woke up at 9 am and went to work from 11 - 3. Nothing major. Then I came home and cleaned my house cause I was having some friends over. Oh also before work I went to Sears to buy some new sheets cause my one sheet that is at my mothers (I go there to do laundry) is at my mothers. Me being the idiot I am forgot it there. So I went to buy some and fucking christ. They are so bloody God damn expensive! I was shocked! 

Amy one of my friends... was working till 7:30. 2 friends of ours was going to meet up at 8 infront of Tim Hortons. So I thought being the nice person I am (not always mind you) I would meet Amy at 7:30 at Tim Hortons so she wouldnt have to wait half an hour alone. I get there and we start talking. Nothing major we decide where we want to eat and everything. Our Assitant Manager (We work in the same store. I got her the job) is sick and she was infecting us. I swear I feel sick right now. Anyways so she said she had to go to the washroom. So she went and I called our friend Teddy to ask him where we were going and what was going on. Anyways he said he was gonna be late and Amy was being an idiot. Saying she was going to leave. David her ex boyfriend popped up. Amy wants to stay friends with David and Teddy (David's best friend) for God only knows what reason. David and Teddy on countless amounts of time have told me there deep hatred towards her. But whatever. So David shows up and Teddy calls telling us he is going to be late. Lol. I knew this. HAHA. Anyways so then Me and Amy decide to go to Boston Pizza for dinner cause David just ate.

We are sitting at Boston Pizza and we are waiting for Teddy. So I am like to Amy I have to pee. I get back he is there and we all talk and order. Now Amy planned all of this and wanted to hand out with all of us. She rarely asks me to come for whatever reason. She always trys to shove me off. Haha, I love it. So we all eat dinner and then ask what we are going to do. Amy then is like I think I should get home I need to be up at 9 in the morning. So we ae all pissed cause it's like you ask us to hang out with you and you are leaving us at 10. I don't think so. The entire night I was going on about how we should of gone drinking. The orignal plan. But David and Teddy were all like I don't want to come so Amy changed it. So then we are all like lets go get some alcohol.

Probelm. We live in Canada and are all 18. You have to be 19 to buy alcohol.  So me and Teddy are all like lets go try. Amy and David are all sketching out and I don't even know. So we are about to go try when we bump into one of David and Teddy's friend. He is 19 and buys us our vodka beer etc... So we are all like lets go back to my house and drink. We hope on the bus and David is like I am going to go home and get my moms car. So me and Teddy are like why don't you guys go to Davids and me and Teddy will be waiting at my house. So thats what happens.

Me and Teddy get to my house and are waiting for David and Amy to get back. My room mate Sylvia is out with her boyfriend, They were going to some party. They come back home at like 11. I am like what? The party was canceled. So we are al hanging out and David and Amy call and where like we are coming. Oh wait I dunno. It's late. After about half an hour of her bullshit her and David finally come to my house and we start drinking.

Me and Teddy drink a shit load of Vodka and Amy has like nothing and thinks she is drunk. David was buzzed I believe. Anyways I am like lets go some we don't wake up my landlords and they freak out. So we all left and started walking about. Anyways so David and Amy are up ahead and me and Teddy are totally all over each other it. Amy and David are all like awww and then we are all there hanging out. And David and Amy are rolling and I am talking and Teddy kisses me. I dunno what to say about it. You don't kiss and tell. Oh yeah Amy also kissed me 2. so anyways after all this hanging out we go over and are all talking and Amy keeps trying to jump Teddy and then she does sorta so me and David run off. Teddy comes back with Amy. (Not impressed) At this point I look at David cause he looks not impressed either. Poor guy. His ex and his best friend. So Amy runs after David and he is all like ahh. So we are walking back to my house and Amy trys to fucking kiss Teddy and David is like 2 feet away. And I as David was not impressed. Not in the least.

So me and Teddy are walking behind and Amy is like OMG I FORGOT MY CELLPHONE so we had to go back and me and Teddy are talking about whatever and I am like I am probaly gonna move to the States cause I hate all this drama and everything. And he is like don't go and I am like why I am all alone here and it is pathetic. So then he is starting to cry at this point. I honestly don't even want to know why.  And so we get to my house with Sylvia and Chris and then Amy calls saying she is lost. They get here and Amy is like omg omg I am so sick and I want to go home. So she calls a cab and David and Teddy are like we are both gong to go. So they both leave with her and while we are waiting for the cab Teddy is massaging my back. Anyways they all leave and I am pissed cause they said that they were going to sleep over which no one did.

So I get back into the house and I am talking with Sylvia and Chris and both of them are like ugh. And I am like I know and Sylvia (Sometims she kills me but she did the best thing ever) hates Amy. She hates her and she personally isnt loving Amy with her actions. So she asks me for her phone number. I am like alright. And she texts her and just says Judas. (For those of you who don't know who Judas is, he's a man that betrayed Jesus.) So then she is like I want to text Teddy and ask him what happened. So she does and he is like omg. And calls her. He is just like I am at Amy's cause she is sick. And Sylvia is like you know she is faking right? And he is like I know and at this point I am pissed that they are even there cause lets face it. She is faking and being an idoit.

So then later Teddy calls me and is like are you ok? And I keep saying I am fine. (Guys of the world when your girlfriend, friend, sister, mother etc. says they are fine they are pissed off and dont want to make a big deal of it.) So then I start to ramble about God knows what (seriously him and Sylvia cause I don't fucking remember anything.) and then I start to talk to David and then I leave and me and Sylvia go to bed cause we were tired.

So this all happened on Sunday morning. I started writing this at about 5 and it is now 1 am almost on a Monday. My computer kept kicking me off so I am now starting to finish.

So Amy messages me on MSN and tells me that they were all talking on the way home. And I am like oh what was said cause she said her assumptions were right. And I am like oh what and she is like it is personal. Sorry! I am like omg Amy you always start stories and never finish them. And then she is like well sorry it is personal. Sorry! Lets forget I mentioned it. And I am like Amy you can't just do this and she is like sorry I am not going to tell you I have to go watch a movie. And I said to her now I think it is about me. I am like you never tell me personal stuff and thats what being a friend is. And she is like well sorry that I am a personal person. I am like so am I but I tell you things cause you are my friend. Then she said g2g bye and logged.

I am not impressed with her. Until she grows up and starts treating me as a friend I am done. Dilema. I work with her on Wednesday. If I remember I will post here.

Current Mood: aggravated

My life right now is kicking my ass. And it sucks.

I will start with the least harsh thing in my life and gradually go up. In my last entry I talked about a 33 year old woman who has just been hired in the same store that I am in. She knows nothing. Oh and I forgot to mention, she is a bitch. Today I worked with as I did yesterday and the days before and today was somewhat interesting. This new girl who is 17 also started around the same time as the bitch is awesome. It is her first job but I love her. Anyway, we were joking around and she told me to shut up. Katie my manager said not to use langauge like that on the floor. And then Katie pulled me aside.


She then came up to me and asked me if yesterday Tanya (The District Manager who came to visit us yesterday) had spoken to me about my swearing on the floor. Now heres the thing. I never swear, ever. I mean when I am with my friends, outta work, yeah it happens. But never at work. My dad is a born again christen (fuck me) and I always have to watch what I say around him so naturally I have learned. Now, Tanya the manager has never once spoken to me about my "swearing on the floor" so I say no. So then she goes to the back where the bitch is. She comes out and starts to talk to Arlene. I loves Arlene. She tocks my world. Then my friend Amy came for an interview (SHE GOT THE JOB. CONGRATS TO HER) and Katie went to go talk with her and then I asked Arlene what she asked. And Arlene said that she asked her if Tanya did speak to me. Arlene said she didnt see it and asked why. Katie said cause Brandi told her that happened. Then Arlene did something I love, she told her that Brandi hates me and will say anything. 

Another work thing, today my manager told me to size and sticker some folded shirts on a table. So I am doing this and Brandi comes up to me and tells me to put it away and size the clothes on the wall. I say ok and just let me size the shirts and not sticker and then I will get to the rest. She says ok and I am quickly doing it. A minute later she comes up and is like why arnt you sizing the walls? And I am like I told you I am finishing this and then I will do it. I am almost done. And then she said I told you like 500 times to do it. You need to listen. I am like you told me once and I told you I am finishing this. So she says fine and goes to the back where Katie is. Then she and Katie emerge from the back and Katie says Andrea you need to do what Brandi tells you the first time. So I a bloody shocked that a 33 year old woman goes and tells on me. I am bloody shocked. Shocked. Omg. Anyways I say to Katie that I was just sizing it and making it look good and I told her I was gonna go. I wasnt even finishing the tables. So thats my work drama. It will be over cause Katie is leaving (HA!) in one week and tomorrow Nina is back. She is my assitant manager and she fucking owns.

My brother has been invovled in hard drugs and I told him if he did E I would tell my dad, I did. Then he kept doing it so I told my mom.  I told her not to tell him that I told her and she promised. She then goes and tells him someone told her he did it. She is so fucking stupid.


Thats basically it. I have more good news and drama but I have to go. BYE!

Fuck. I just had written alot of shit and BANG the page goes back. Basically I said I had an old account, don't remember the password and basically I need to dish anout my life.


Im 18. Live in Vancouver Canada and moved out on Feb 1st 2007. I moved out basically cause my mother was killing me and now my room mate is. It is a healthy transition... well... Anyways I am in a long distance relationship and life here is kicking my ass. I will begin with all the juicy details.


Like I said I moved out. I live with a room mate. Everything is going good in my life. Scary...!!! Well except for the new 3rd key. My mother and me never got along but now we are doing alright. So for once in my life she is not going all crazy on me. Thank God. My dad lives in London and we are closer then ever. I miss him alot but we email,talk and text alot. But in the past week or 2 we havent been in contact. It saddens me a bit. Besides the hostility in my home I am dealing with a new co worker at work who thinks she owns the place.


She is 3rd key. For all you non-retail workers out there (you lucky bastards) I will define what 3rd key means. It means you hold a key. I am dead serious this is it. First off she has been telling my manager that I have been saying shit behind her back. Have I? Some but not to the new girl. Everyone knows to keep there mouth shut around new people. Anyways, besides the fact that she thinks she is the best thing to ever happen to our store cause she has had alot of jobs for a woman of 33, she doesn't know her shit. Ok so she gets the odd sale, (she is so fake it kills me inside sometimes) she doesn't know the policy, how to use the computer or how to do anything. Then she blames it on my assitant manager who is the shit. I love her for life. Seriously work is killing me right now. I am always working with her and she doesnt know her shit so she is basically useless.

I am planning a trip to Florida this summer with a friend from England. My guess is he wont pull through. I have this feeling. He has been planning to go forever to see a friend and he has never been. But this year it is gonna happen. I am trying to get another job and figure out my career we will see what happens in the glorious world of ours.

But for now I am gonna go I have dished about the drama in my life and its what I needed. My friends here (the ones who havent moved away, I will talk about them tomorrow) don't give a shit about my probelms. Its always me listening to them and I am sick of it. No one listens through the entire thing. They cut me off and start talking about themselves. This is why I must leave here. It is killing me and for those who havent been to Canada, we arent all that nice. Especially in the East. Those people have major issues they need to work on.


So for now I am going. I am probaly going to get a diet coke and go watch a movie and fall asleep. I am an insomniac who is actually tired. It's 2 minutes to 8. This is a freaking miracle. Omg. I love it. Anyways tutaloo livejournal people!!!


Love,
Andrea
xoxoxo

Current Mood: aggravated